i think this is the end of this journal.
i'm so sentimental and it pains me to shut this one down since i've had it for nearly 5 years, but it's definitely time for a change. i'm sick of my old self, no more. this one has lasted me a long time and i have no idea who even still reads it, but it did provide some good catharsis, and i've recorded some memorable stuff on here. hopefully the journal won't be deleted permanently, but im' not writing in it anymore.
anyway, i've got a new journal now,
and i will add particular people from my friends list who still write in theirs to mine, and if i don't and you want to be added, just tell me, you know how it goes.
and if anyone else wants to read it, simply ask me for the link.
thanks for everything, berymsyst. adieu!

i feel so busy, and i dont like it..
no actual work, but plenty to study..

i think i'm pretty organized.. i know where all my stuff is, even if it looks messy to other people. but i dont know how i could be so stupid as to not check to see when to book my final exam for my online class. i thought i could book it at any time, i didn't know it had to be AT LEAST ten days in advance, and now i can either take it on the 15th of dec, one day before i leave for india.. which is fine, since that's all that's left.. or i can wait til next year, which i really dont want to do.. but the thing is.. it all depends on how monday goes. if i can't do it by monday, then i'll be stuck taking it next semester, if that's even possible. im always on top of things and this is driving me crazy. how could i be so stupid and neglectful?!?! argh.

in other news, i'm not as worried about finals as i was before.. i have about a week to study and i'm doing it, at my own pace. it's not like i have anything else to do anyway, haven't really left the house or let myself enjoy anything with the way my psych class is going. it might be possible to put straight A's, not including psych, so i need to step up..

school sucks.

also, i've been downloading music like crazy lately.. i have some really good stuff too, i think i dled like 60 songs last week..
i really like mat kearney's stuff: "all i need" and "where we gonna go from here" and "nothing left to lose"
i like his voice, and pleasant tune.

other stuff i've been listening to:
beulah
incubus: their new cd is pretty good, "love hurts" and "anna molly"
christmas songs, just cuz i won't be here at christmas time..
trans-siberian orchestra, not bad.. some of it is a little hard though.
and then old music i haven't listened to in forever, like interpol and franz ferdinand..

i just want to say..

i've had a good break. i feel like i've had TOO much fun, and now my finals are going to hit me hard.

i had some straaange dreams last night, and every one of them involved someone i hadn't thought about in a long long time. and i woke up thinking, why am i dreaming of him? talk about random! and then when i went back to sleep, i had 2 more completely different dreams with him in it. no names, i dont remember if he still reads this.. but why is that? i dont give my dreams too much importance but they're pretty weird sometimes.

this last week has been good.. spent time with my sis, got to see judith and watch ridiculous movies and get lots of bubble tea and gorge on indian food and eat very expensive and totally worth it food at aqua blue and last resort. no going out for me til i get back from india now.. i even got up at 4am and stood in line for the 8gb photo czm for only $129, and got it too.. boy i love good sales.. and good music.
aqua blue: calamari, 'ab' volcano roll (yummy, with scallops on top!), crab cake (so much crab, so good), and warm chocolate cake with ice cream (seriously, one of the best cakes i've ever had)
last resort: only my fabulous grilled vegetable pasta with tons of veggies, and lots of oil..

even athens was fun, hung out with pat and julie.. went to the tech/uga football game, where uga beat tech for the 6th year in a row.. i almost wish tech would have won though, cuz they would have been the underdog and they've been playing so well this year. oh well. seriously, it was fun though. i went from knowing nothing about football to being hooked on it, only when our team is playing, of course. like i would ever watch it on my own time, for recreation, pssh.
either way, the game was insanely intense and fun. i'm so glad we went.

and now.. the work is starting to kick in, bleaaaach.
somehow i have to fit in packing, visiting my sis, working out, and studying in the next couple weeks..

i had the most pleasant dream last night.. wow. that put me in a good mood.

not to mention the samosa, chaat, and pani puri party today.. i'm going to go loco.

interesting week. the psych exam went better than expected. weird how all that studying paid off a lot. i like it.

yday, road tripped to atl and back, got to eat at tin drum, spent time with imaad, my favorite maad man, and julie and cici of course. krush girls was fun, as usual. played more dance music that i didn't know, but still, some good ones.

i love how the first and only time (so far) i finally get julie cici and pat together and it's the only friggin night none of us take any pictures.
oh well, *many more to come!*

and now.. i'm sore and cranky.

i.
am.
so.
sore.

i love this feeling.
except that my arm hurts when i lift it.

ok.. i have a ton of studying to do.. but i just have to say this.
wahwahveewaw!
i saw 'alpha dog' tonight, really good, a bit difficult to watch but definitely thought-provoking and interesting. the cast was beyond amazing and totally played their parts perfectly. who knew justin timberlake could act?!?!? and why is he so damn hot?! i have a huge crush on him now.. it all started with sexyback, and now the way he brought this character out on screen just made me ten times hotter to me.
the director was there after the movie to answer questions and he seemed like a really cool guy. he made the notebook and blow and was talking about how he picked justin timberlake and didn't realize he was that big of a star, and that he picked him because his character is supposed to be someone who acts all tough and gangsta when he's really meek and couldn't do shit, which he thought WAS JT perfectly haha. also amusing that the slutty grungy naked girl in the movie who ppl said "EWW" to, turned out to be the director's wife.. WOW.
i wish i had asked the director if he could tell justin to come over and bring sexy back to my bedroom.

ahh.. and now i'm screwed for my psych test.. but i still have 3 more days.. regardless..

'my love' is so hot! i just saw the video.. i love seeing two hot hot men in a video together. muy caliente!

"amores perros babe"
-patty

This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath

No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again.

i'm trying to be happier. although, after getting back my psych test today.. i wish i was dead.

been working out every day too.. except today i had to stop early, really felt sick.
i hope i'm not overdoing it.. i dont think i am, it's just today.

i love how clean my room was... for those two days. now it's a war zone again.

let's see.. i worked last weekend, saw the departed which was amazing. i would definitely see that movie again.
spent a lot of time alone and being annoyingly introspective, some days i think i should just get over myself and other days i feel like wallowing.
also saw 'stranger than fiction' at a sneak preview for free yesterday. i liked it cuz it was free. it was kinda predictable, but not bad.

i dont feel so good.

where the hell is sanford hall?

i'm actually getting into roopert's band, they're a lot better than before, kinda weird. i didn't think i would like that sort of thing but it's pretty soothing and perfect for the way i'm feeling at the moment.

i just want it to be 6 months already.

currently looking forward to:
the baby shower
the end of classes
krush girls
thanksgiving
india trip

yay for democrats taking over!
and yay for borat!

borat quotes:

"my mother, she no love me. she tell me she wish she was raped by someone else."

In my country there is problem,
And that problem is transport.
It take very very long,
Because Kazakhstan is big.

Throw transport down the well,
So my country can be free.
We must make travel easy,
Then we have big party!

In my country there is problem,
And that problem is the Jew.
They take everybody's money,
They never give it back.

Throw the Jew down the well,
So my country can be free.
You must grab him by his horns,
Then we have big party.

If you see the Jew coming,
You must be careful of his teeth.
You must grab him by his money,
And I tell you what to do...

Everybody!

Throw the Jew down the well
So my country can be free
You must grab him by his horns
Then we have big party!

strange..
i had a pretty good fall break.. spent my friday at home with the family, or whatever is left of it..

saturday, went shopping with my mom, then to cheesecake factory with friends for a dinner with the shittiest service ever, and then to a birthday party where i have lots of pictures, most of which i cannot post on facebook, unfortunately.]
and since that night (last night, although it feels like ages ago) i can't get 'i wanna f*** you' out of my head.. damn that song.. it's so dirty and catchy.

"i love friends" haha dumbass.

for the first time yday.. i felt a twinge of sadness when i left my house. i've never felt any sort of homesickness before, not since last year and that was only to see khiem. but it wasn't too bad being at home.. odd.

today, i got up early and went to work.. i really enjoyed it, i just spend all my time with dogs and get paid rather well for it. felt very productive, it wouldn't have been the same if i had just slept away my sunday morning.

also, i just noticed that when my hair is straight, you can still see the highlights in my hair that cici put in two summers ago.. that's so weird! does my hair grow ridiculously slow or is that normal?

then david and patty cakes cooked me a really good dinner, yum.

i know i'm not meant to be a salesperson. i do NOT know how to force someone to do anything. and i dont mind that i don't either.

this week: work hard, so i can relax this weekend.
and FINALLY, i'm not going home this weekend! although i really should.

Oh I am young but I have aged
Waited long to seize the day
All things said and plenty done
life is short.